Thrown under the bus

This place could be described:   "had the rug pulled out from underneath you", "cut off at the knees",  dumbfounded, blindsided, "thrown under the bus" or just to put it bluntly...betrayed.  There's the disorientation, utter devastation, confusion, anger, overwhelming sadness, and my personal favorite...denial, saying that this can't POSSIBLY be happening.  These are all part of the package that now becomes a constant companion.  Then the strike of intense pain at any random moment, coming at your inner being like a tidal wave, for no reason other than the fact that the energy necessary to keep the pain at bay has given way.  The flow of tears that results is uncomfortable, even embarrassing at times, but certainly unavoidable.  In short, the pain is intense, and there is no explanation.  And there's no going back, no apparent way to repair the situation and no escape.