What do you do when the person you are in love with changes? Yes, you adapt and "go with the flow". But what if the changes seem to pulling that person away from you and you wonder whether they want to participate in the relationship anymore or not. Their words say "yes", but the intensity of the "want to" isn't there anymore and the amount of time has diminished to a point where you feel guilty asking for their time. Do you ride it out??? Do you ask for what you need and risk pushing them away further?
I'm sad...the distance is challenging...I feel like a single parent again and I don't even know if you want to parent with me or not. I wanna tell you how I feel so that you hear me....but will you REALLY hear me?? I've tried....I've really tried. I want to be understanding. I want to be loving. I tried to listen, I've tried to be patient, to be present for you and your needs....but you aren't for mine. I feel like I get the leftovers, if that. There are times when I feel like you avoid me or just put up with me, to pacify me, just to get yourself through.
I need you.....be present for me. Come back to me. I miss the connection. I miss the comfort. And if you can't, please be honest, and tell me to stay away.
