Misconceptions

I believe that God has a unique relationship with each person.  WOW!  Isn't that a thought!!  HE speaks to each one of us in a special way....either by circumstances, worship, songs, spoken words from others or maybe through a book that we start to read.  We may be drawn to the title because of the particular life situation we find ourselves in.  God is currently speaking to me through the book I'm reading....to get me to think differently about HIM and my view of the world.

So...the book is entitled Wait and See by Wendy Pope.  It's about God's purpose for our waiting and waiting well as a woman of God.  I'm not so sure I fit the "woman of God" category but the waiting part certainly fits.

Here's the thing that slapped me in the face this morning...."misconceptions about waiting".  I didn't think that there could be so many lies about waiting that the enemy would throw at me, but there are.  And the way that he uses those lies to lead you away from the Person of my faith and get my eyes to focus intensely on the "OBJECT of my wait".  I've sinned....plain and simple.  I've let the enemy pull me away from God and look daily on what I don't have, what's NOT happening.

Misconception #1  If I am waiting, I must not have heard God correctly.
"We give up too easily because we don't see what we want to see when we want to see it."  I need to fight my negative thoughts and emotions along this journey by revisiting the times when I've heard and felt the Holy Spirit's voice or nudging.  Traveling down memory lane is something that I need to do, as well as asking God for clarity and assurance.

I think the part that hit me the hardest was when she suggested that it's important to "invite God into our wait from the beginning".  I know that I haven't done that.  I've tried so many things on my own and nothing has worked.    That walking with Him, not in front of Him, behind Him or completely on my own, hopefully will teach me to TRUST His delays rather than doubt His ways.  I NEVER thought about TRUSTING His delay.

Fighting the spirit of discouragement on my knees, referencing Isaiah 64:4 -
"For since the beginning of the world men have not heard, nor perceived by the ear, neither have the eye seen, O God, beside you, what He has PREPARED for him that wait for Him."
The invitation of this verse is to direct the lens of my hopes, desires, and dreams to God, rather than the object of my wait.

I'm learning Lord.  You are a patient teacher, one that doesn't mind reteaching and using all kinds of methods of repeating the same concept until my stubborn will and brain get it.  I am sorry....for my stubbornness, my lack of trust, my lack of prayer and turning to You, but mostly I'm sorry for hurting someone that I dearly love in the process.

Prayer:  Gracious God, Thank you for this book.  I haven't heard you say anything about this circumstance but "just keep loving him".  I know that's the place of peace because those instructions came from YOU.  All the other things that I thought I heard were words from the enemy, working diligently to get me to focus on my fears and my present wait.  Help me God to TRUST Your delay, not doubt what You are doing.  Force me down on my knees to pray instead of worry.  Nudge me OFTEN to go down memory lane where the memories are sweet and bring joy and love to my soul.  I ask for your forgiveness and grace, Lord.  Give me another chance.  In His name I come to your throne of mercy.  Jesus.... Amen.